Monday, November 19, 2012

The Perks of Being A Wallflower

Nowadays it is very hard for me to find time to read non medical books. Dahlah takde time, harga buku di Malaysia juga adalah sungguh menghiris perasaan. Back in Dublin i make it a habit to always have at least one novel on my nightstand. Jadi sebelum tidur boleh baca at least 2-3 pages untuk menaiktaraf penguasaan Bahasa Inggeris sebab 2 tahun setengah duduk negara omputeh kalau English tak improve baik kau balik study dekat Nilai je.

And since final exams baru habis beberapa minggu yang lalu i thought maybe it's about time i do some non medical readings. So last week i went to Borders and get a copy of this;


I dont normally do books review but this one is an exception. Everyone needs to get a copy of this. The story revolves around a socially awkward emotionally troubled teenager named Charlie. Penceritaan adalah dalam bentuk surat yang ditulis oleh Charlie kepada seorang 'kawan'. Im guessing this whole writing letters to a friend is his psychiatrist idea since Charlie expresses himself better in written form.

If you by any chance took a course in Psychiatry or Psychology pembacaan novel ini akan membawa anda ke tahap orgasme berganda as you try to figure out what the hell is wrong with Charlie and what had actually happened when he was a kid. He gives hints in his letters but never a straightforward answer which makes it even more interesting.

Bahasa yang digunakan adalah sungguh simple yet very effective and beautifully written. Senang nak paham untuk kita-kita yang English koyak ni. Lemme share with you some of the excerpts from the book;

"I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we'll never know most of them. But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them"

Here's another one;

"Sam climbed in the back of the pickup, wearing nothing but her dance dress. She told Patrick to drive, and he got this smile on his face. I guess they had done this before...Anyway, Patrick started driving really fast, and just before we got to the tunnel, Sam stood up, and the wind turned her dress into ocean waves. When we hit the tunnel, all the sound got scooped up into a vaccuum, and it was replaced by a song on the tape player. A beautiful song called "Landslide." When we got out of the tunnel, Sam screamed this really fun scream, and there it was. Downtown. Lights on buildings and everything that makes you wonder. Sam sat down and started laughing. Patrick started laughing. I started laughing. 

And in that moment, I swear we were infinite."

It took me only a bus ride to KL from Kuala Kangsar and one night in a hotel room in Malacca to finish the whole book.


Why i board on a bus to KL and how i ended up in Malacca is a whole different story but the point is once you read this book, you'd want to finish it. Towards the end of the book i cried a little. Not like when Dumbledore died kind of cry but still, it affects me emotionally to a certain extent. 

They made a movie based on the book. And im glad Stephen Chbosky who is the author of the book directed the movie. One of these days imma find it online and watch the shit out of that movie.


"we accept the love we think we deserve"

Everyone go get yourself a copy of this book. Now.

Monday, November 12, 2012

Tips Membina Badan....Not.


Life post exam is not as exciting as i thought it would be. The weather has been pretty sucky lately hence limiting my outdoor activities. I'm currently doing my electives at a super boring hospital (ade ke hospital yang tak boring weh?)


Spent most of the time looking for good food to compensate for those crappy meals i had during the exam weeks. Tapi bila dah banyak free time ni takde idea pulak nak makan apa. Went to Seoul Garden with the boys immediately after our last paper and i swear that's the last time im eating at that place.

-Other than the Szechuan beef and teriyaki chicken, everything else was just nasty. The sotong especially masin tahap air laut mati i can feel both my kidney failing as i was eating them.

And since dah banyak free time ni tiap-tiap minggu la balik kampung. Eventhough balik kampung costs me money ( newsflash: tol and petrol aint cheap) Opah's cooking and the homely feeling is worth every penny. Opah also provides me bekal to bring back home setiap minggu.

This week's lauk:


-ikan sambal dan daging kijang masak kicap. Bila masa Opah memburu kijang tidaklah ku ketahui.

So it is no surprise that my waistline is expanding like nobody's biznezz. Petang-petang if im not curling up under the duvet this is what im up to;



Exercise sejam lepastu malam lepas dinner siap boleh tapau nasik lemak sebungkus buat supper. Memang cerah harapan kau nak kurus.


Sunday, November 4, 2012

Weeks of Torture Is Over


This past few weeks have been hell. Exam 4 subjek hardcore dengan minggu pertama written papers back to back setiap hari rasa macam nak terjun jambatan. Exam paling susah sepanjang medschool so far. But to be honest its getting more susah each semester. So i should probably take some prophylactic antidepressant before next semester start.

This is yours truly room during study week;


This is after i did my laundry and decided no time should be wasted on folding clothes.


I was a total mess. Mentally and physically. See that orange thingy on the study desk? That is Loreal Men Expert serum or water or whatever they call it - my last effort to keep myself somewhat presentable. Tidur 4 jam lepastu bangun tepek Loreal Men dengan harapan wajah bersinar ala Aaron Aziz sambil tepek sambil nyanyi lagu Muara Hati feeling sangat pffft. Dahlah horror gila minggu exam terbangun setiap 2 jam lepastu menggelabah tengok jam takut tak sempat study 30 juta chapters yang tinggal.

Pernah tak rasa tertekan sampai tiba-tiba develop migraine lepastu rasa nak give up dan berhenti belajar dan mulakan bisnes cupcake atau jual tudung syria dekat facebook? I feel that every single day ketika minggu exam. My parents hope and doa are the only thing that keeps me going.

Diet ketika exam week consist of mostly fast food. Simply because it's fast. Nak lipat kain pun kurasakan membazir masa apatah lagi nak ke kedai makan order tomyam tunggu 20 minit. Jadi penyudahnya McD drive thru ataupun pizza delivery sebagai alternatif. 


Lepastu kalau order Domino's boleh keep track order online. So sambil tunggu pizza sampai target habiskan baca beberapa page lecture notes. Sungguh efisyen di situ.


Ada satu hari je tebiat gila tiba-tiba teringin masakan sendiri. Kau mampu mengidam masakan sendiri? Masterchef pun tak sekonfiden ni. Jadi goreng bihun bodoh, rencah guna bebola dan fishcake sahaja sebab tak mampu nak beli ayam akibat bajet burst buat bayar Mcdonalds dengan pizza sepanjang minggu.


Tapi serius time-time exam memang akan mengidam benda pelik-pelik. Tambahan pulak tak dapat balik beraya lagilah perasaan membuak-buak nak makan makanan dari rumah. Termimpi-mimpi dapat makan gulai lemak dengan sambal tumis. 

Habis exam bergegas balik kampung hari Sabtu dengan harapan dapat makan sedap. Setibanya di kampung this is what i found under Opah's tudung saji;


Sambal sotong dengan gulai lemak ikan rebus.

Omaigod rasa nak nangis. Macamana opah tau dah berminggu mengidam nak makan sambal dengan gulai lemak?? She gets it right every single time. Soulmate betul.


My boo doing her thang.

Siap mengadu nasib tak dapat balik raya makan spaghetti dalam bilik sorang-sorang like a total loser. Terus dihidangkan minum petang kuih bahulu raya haji. 


Terharu.