Emotions.

Im in a state of denial.

Im going back to Malaysia for good in a few weeks time. But all this while i tried not to think about it so much. Malas nak sedih awal-awal,membazir emosi je. Baik tunggu last-last menet,dekat airport,sebelum masuk boarding gate lepastu baru leleh. Macam dalam sinetron. Scene dekat airport mesti yang paling syahdu. Tapi lepas dapat email from JPA pasal flight details,then it hit me. Memang tarikh kepulangan semakin dekat.

So sebagai coping mechanism,i cuba untuk menikmati hari-hari terakhir ini dengan kegembiraan bersama-sama teman rapat yang bakal ditinggalkan tidak lama lagi. Some of my close friends are not going back sebab diorang over achievers SPM berapa puluh A entah jadi dapat full 5 years course dekat Ireland. Kita yang SPM biasa-biasa ni gomen kata halfway dh boleh balik Malaysia,kau bukan pandai sangat nak duduk lama-lama kat obersi.

Waktu mula-mula datang Dublin i didnt even know half of these people's names. Tapi over the years we bonded,picnic together-gether,lepak together-gether,vacation together-gether. Sekarang dah begitu kamceng hingga tidak perlu segan kalau terkentut di depan mereka ini.

Pictures were taken at Owein's house where we all fell off the no-shisha wagon. Konon dah sober tak shisha berapa bulan,sekali bila tuan rumah bawak keluar shisha 2 balang semua keimanan goyah. Dengar ura-ura they want to ban shisha in Malaysia soon,so ini memang last lah baraikan paru-paru macamni.

We had a makan-makan session sempena perpisahan yang bakal tiba. I dont have pictures of the foods here but semua memang awesome. Ada nasi with kambing,chicken wrap,burger,cakes dan segalajadah lagi. Thanks to Elle and Owein pasangan romantis penaja majlis.

Our friendship has its ups and downs. Despite the conflicts between some of us, especially when emotions get involved, at the end of the day we are still friends. And my biggest regret up till this day is that i let you took all the blames for whatever happened between us. It was partially my fault jugak (but mostly its yours lah haha *nervous laugh*,im joking).

You deserve someone better =)

Ini sepatutnya jadi satu post yang jiwengs sedih but memang tak sanggup nak bersyahduan sekarang. Perlu kekal positif sebab sebelum balik perlu tempuhi satu exam lagi. Now excuse me while i 'cope' with these emotions.

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